Do You Miss Me As Much As I Miss You?

It’s been too damn long.

You know you’ve been gone for too long when it feels a tad weird to type a new story and you have to pause and stumble many many times.

First order of business, I suppose –

How are you doing?

How are you all?

It’s been so long since I spoke to you and though I try to check up on you every now and then, it’s far from enough.

I am Medium deprived. If such thing is even a thing.

Anyone else had this?

I am by no means back for good (I wish).

I am only stopping by, the moment I get the chance.

Like a dutiful daughter who goes abroad to study and goes back home to check on her family.

So, my dearest Medium family – how are you guys?

Do you – by any chance – miss me as much, as bad as I miss you?

What have I been doing?

I have received lovely messages from some of you here. Some requesting to join A Few Words, a publication in which I’m an editor, some requesting to join Warm Hearts, my own publication and some, are just wondering where on Earth I have vanished to.

I have received messages inquiring my well-being, well-wishers who wrote just to wish me well.

Such a blessed life (I am smiling ear to ear as I write this).

It has been so long since my last post. So long that I have no recollection whether I’ve mentioned why I would be gone for a while.

I have landed a job (very very lucky, I know) at the start of the year and have been busy trying to adjust and settle in my new job.

So much to do. So much to learn. So little time.

I am now officially a trained personal trainer, working in a great gym with a bunch of lovely supportive people.

Life has blessed me thus far and has continued to do so every step of the way.

And I say thank you every day to the higher power, to the Universe who has so kindly watch over me and my loved ones.

This new life is not without its challenges.

As with every new journey, there are hurdles, obstacles to overcome.

It hasn’t been smooth sailing.

My husband and I have had to learn a lot, navigating the new uncharted territory.

It was not without an argument or two. It’s just natural that issues arise with such a drastic lifestyle change. I now have a full-time job and with the job, comes a series of responsibilities.

Makes me realize how much of a Wonder Woman my mother was, raising 3 kids, running a household and helping my dad full time in his company. Yes, she had help – my grandmother, our housemaid – but nevertheless.

She pulled it off and she made it looked almost effortless.

And here I am, struggling, trying to juggle 2 worlds and trying to prevent them from colliding into each other.

Alas, I had a mini meltdown during one of my training.

Sheer exhaustion, stress and excess in caffeine. A dangerous cocktail.

I cried – well, sobbed – uncontrollably for about 3 minutes in front of my trainer and my batch-mates.

It was embarrassing to say the least, crying in the gym cafe/lounge – yes, in public. But it was cathartic, and absolutely necessary.

What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.

As cliche as that sounds, truer words have never been spoken.

The journey has just begun.

But I am already feeling stronger.

What’s next?

I’m still busy with my new job. I’m busier more than ever, training others and at the same time, making sure I take a good care of myself.

I haven’t figured out how to do my Medium yet. My time is stretched thin as it is.

After a long period of careful thought and contemplation, I have decided that for now, I shall be mostly an observer/reader, keeping an eye out, reading everyone’s wonderful pieces.

I’ll be reading more than writing and I will still run the publications I’m involved with to the best of my ability.

I’m currently writing to you from a mini staycation I’m having with my husband. It’s a very much needed break we both need from the crazy world and I’m glad we take it because now I have time to sit down and talk to you for a bit.

Well, this is a bit repetitive but how are you?

How have you been?

I hope all is well with you wherever you are.

I hope you’re still kicking ass out there, living life to the fullest and inspiring others to kick ass.

It has been nice being back for a few hours as opposed to the 15 – 30 minutes of Medium time I always try to squeeze into my day.

I hope you continue to write and dazzle and I look forward to read more of your lovely stories.

Last but not least –

I really – really really really – miss you all.

Keep rocking!

Writer by heart. Teacher (English, Yoga, Pilates) by trade. Avid reader. World traveller. Model. You can reach me at agneslouis3108@gmail.com.

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