There are so many ways I can start this piece of writing. So many words, so many sentences I can string.
I finally chose to open this piece with a warm heartfelt wish to all of you amazing women out there who bear the title of a MOTHER.
HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!
This Mother’s Day is yet another first for me. First of the many firsts in my new world of life without my mother.
It’s the first Mother’s Day I’m celebrating without my mother.
I debated with myself last night. Should I write a tribute piece to my mother? It’s an important milestone in my journey yet I feel like I shouldn’t dampen Mother’s Day mood because let’s just be honest, it’s sad to celebrate — for the very first time — Mother’s Day without a mother.
This morning, a message came in from my brother and it ended all my inner conflicts.
He sent me a picture of my grandmother with a bouquet of flowers.
So instead of telling you how I feel celebrating my first motherless Mother’s Day, I’m gonna tell you something else.
Call it an epiphany.
I lost my mother last year.
My grandmother lost a daughter.
She (my grandmother) cried on her birthday upon receiving a red pocket (it’s a Chinese tradition) from my brother and I’m sure she cried again this morning as she held the big bouquet of flowers in her arms.
As I’m always away from home, my brother has assumed the tradition my mother used to perform for my grandmother.
In tears, my grandmother told my brother that she missed my mother a lot.
My mother always made sure she gave presents to my grandmother every year, on her own birthday, on my grandmother’s birthday and on Mother’s Day.
I don’t think my grandmother expected that the tradition will carry on after my mother is no longer around.
She probably never thought that the children of her daughter would one day take her daughter’s place in continuing the tradition.
So to all of you out there, children who are celebrating Mother’s Day without mothers, mothers who lost their children, celebrate this day with your loved ones who are mothers.
Celebrate love and life, and most importantly, celebrate those who have given births to beautiful, meaningful lives.
Those you have lost, they are never truly lost. They still live, in you, through you.
I am celebrating Mother’s Day.
I am celebrating my mother, who had taught me life and love and all the things that truly matter.
I am celebrating my grandmother, who has given birth to a beautiful soul like my mother and mold her into a warrior so she too could mold me into one.
I am celebrating each and everyone of you ladies out there who are mothers. It’s not an easy feat and one that will never end.
To all of you mothers out there, THANK YOU. For taking the time and making the effort to create a better generation and thus helping shape a better world, a brighter future.
Thank you for being a mother.
Happy Mother’s Day ❤