…ommenting, Agnes Louis! Well into adulthood, I, too, had a strong physical reaction to my mistakes. Realizing my error in a situation, my heart would race, my chest tighten, and I’d want to run away. My brain would race to create and excuse, a plausible explanation, an escape route.
I experience the same thing! I still do every now and then and it will take a while to change but I’m on my way! It’s inspiring that you create a new life in your 50s!
Thank you for sharing your valuable insight! :)