Wow, to this day, I still find it a bit bizarre when I read some posts here on Medium that is absolutely relatable to my situation or when someone comments on my post and describes exactly how I feel. It feels good in a way that I know I’m not alone in this.

I really feel exactly what you said in your comment. I feel a bit lost. Yes, I’m an adult but my mother was the one who always taught me things, including life as an adult and how to be a woman too. I have no sisters. I have aunts and best girl friends but it’s different kind of relationship. I remember how terrified I was the first time the thought that “This is it, she’s no more” hit me. But then I also remember how strong my mother was when she was still alive and I should follow her footstep and be stronger myself.

My family is still suffering the loss. My mother always told me that father is the head of the house but mother is the neck. She was our glue and now we’re a bit in a disarray. But everything can and should be learned. We’ve been thrown into the deep end and so now we’re learning how to swim so we don’t sink.

Thank you so much for sharing your feeling Erik Brown. I really appreciate it. It really means a lot. And thank you so much for reading :)

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